Terrified of jump scares in horror movies, but love horror movies. via /r/movies

I wish there was something I could do about it. The second after a jump scare I’m totally fine and after the movie I often leave feeling it was lame and not at all scary. But during scenes where I know something might jump out and scare me I can’t physically force myself to watch. Right now I feel like I could put on a horror movie and watch it and just force myself. But as soon as it starts and the jump scare is imminent I have to look away til the jump scare has happened.

This is really annoying because I really really want to be able to watch it but I can’t. I physically can’t. Every fiber in my body forces me to cover my eyes. Might be relevant to say that I’m terrified of any sudden loud noise and have been since a kid. Hate balloons. I can hold the balloon myself and pop it in my hands, no problem. I can bathe in a sea of balloons and pop them all with my body. But I just can’t handle it when someone else is in control of the balloon. Because then I can’t know when it’s going to pop. My parents say it might be because I was born during a war and my mother was pregnant with me during the war as well. Bombs and guns everywhere. Not sure I believe this but it sure fits in…

If someone holds a pringles can and press on it slowly or any kind of object that is about to blow up I can’t just be cool, I have to cover my ears.

Is there ANYTHING anyone has read about or know, any method, that can help me get over this? I really want to be able to watch scary movies. They aren’t even the slightest bit scary to me other than jump scares. I don’t feel any other kind of “fright”. I can watch a scary movie alone in the dark in the woods. Just hate the damn jump scares.